Looking Grace In The Eye

This morning I had a peculiar experience. I was washing my face and putting on sunscreen examining my skin. Drinking in the texture and glow of my milk chocolate hue, speckled with freckles lighting up my smile like stars spangle the night skies. I looked down to my belly, bloated and tight. I’d had two cysts burst this year already. I wondered only briefly about them before I found myself running my hands over my belly smiling. I looked down at my knock-knees and thighs that touched the whole way down. I laughed. Was it a laugh? Joy escaped my lips at the sight of me. I was delighted with me. I allowed myself to be in that moment as long as I could before I wondered what it was I’d just experienced?

Love.

Immediately I felt my heart open and the God that dwells within me spoke clearly and with authority:

Know that you are always becoming so joy will always be joy. It is yours to find and it can be as elusive as you make it. It is as accessible as the mirror. There, if you allow it, is adoration, inspiration, awe, delight, mystery, and all the ingredients for the greatest love story ever told. There is the beginning of the greatest love you’ll ever know.

There is something so peaceful about those moments. There after comes a calm and a clarity that makes the inhale I breathe flow with both ease and emphasis at the same time. It is like decisions become easier to make because there no way for me to fail when I am only answering the call of my own Self. Reverberating through space and time, communication as love because it is the strongest most transcendent energy.

My beliefs are such that, I trust that my purpose was something I agreed to before birth and entering this realm as a human. My purpose is healing my purpose is helping; and I’ve spent a lot of time training on how to use my gifts as a tool in service of collectives. I found a sort of sweet spot with holding spaces. Healing spaces. I love to facilitate and curate spaces and experiences that provide experiences for healing. So I took a leap and started a business. But more than that, I answered my own call. I looked myself in the eye knowing all that I am capable of becoming because I’ve seen it, because I am it and it’s already in me. That is the tender smile that spreads across my cheeks, fully and rosy covered in constellations, when I look Grace in the eye.